My Pain

Look into the ocean...
What do you see?

Do you see my endless tears in the water?
Do you see my broken heart as the waves form and crash?
Do you see the permanent damage as the creases in the water never fade?
Do you see my reflection as u feel your conscience?

I?m not just a little girl who fell down and hurt her knee...
I?m a little girl who fell in love and had her heart torn apart.

To breathe seems like a chore...
To open my eyes in the morning seems like a waste...
To trust seems impossible...
To smile seems so far away...
To laugh feels like a craving...
To love again is and will always be a dream that never comes true.

I?m not myself anymore...
My chest hurts...
My heart aches...
My eyes weep...
And my body feels like it's covered in endless flames...

Peace seems so distant...
And my eyes are just not good enough to find it.

Today, I lost her

Today, I lost her.
In the wee hours of the morning,
She slipped away.
All that she worked for
Came crumbling down around her.

Today, she lost her grip on reality,
All the good turned sour,
All the strong fell weak.
Before the sun even rose,
She lost all control.
She no longer knew who she was.

Somewhere along the line,
She fell short
Of what everyone wanted from her,
Leaving her
Void, without an identity,
Just a label,
Failure,
Disapointment.
In the privacy of her own mind

All the pain she suffered,
All the pain she caused,
All the times she was let down,
All the times she let them down,
Came rushing in,
And it became too unbearable.
She has been lost amongst the shuffle
Of those getting higher.

She won't be missed.
Today, I lost myself.
The once strong self has quietly exited.
The secure person I once was
Is now gone.
In the wee hours of the morning
My happiness slipped away.

Before the sun even rose
My joyous disposition surrendered to all my pain,
Letting the reality of the world set in.
Today I lost all hope of finding my happy self again.

I cry all the time

Baby, where have you been?
I turned and you weren't there
You left me for friends
I wonder if you love me

Baby, what'd you do?
I'm yours, don't you remember?
I cry all the time
I wonder if you care

Baby, why'd you hurt me?
You told me that you won't hurt me
I was positive about it
I wonder if you need me

Promise Only What You Can Deliver

Promises broken
Trust has faded
Tell me how we've gotten here
How we fell this far
Medicate me, fill me with your lies
The truth's unnoticed, tearing me apart
Words are spoken, breaking my heart in two
No matter what happens, I'll be crying for you

My Heart Fill Wth So Much Pain

I kept my head up high,
and then you came my way.
I have been hurt so many times.
My heart filled with so much pain.
but now that pain has gone away.
For I have found a place I want to be.
This place I see is with thee.
For in your arms I have felt and seen,
a wonderful feeling that I cannot believe.
A safe haven in your arms just for me.
Now I give my heart to thee.
For my heart believes in you.

Life is not a bed of Roses

Life is not always kind
And we have to keep this in mind
Good times are never to stay
Sp always be ready to face the worse
My life was beautiful
Even I envied it sometimes
But now I have to envy others
Happiness has left me
And is far beyond my reach
Clouds of grief scare me
And I stand helpless
Love is life, is what I thought
Buth there is no truth in it
Love is too much to ask for
And not within my reach
Like an isolated seashell I lie here today
Nowhere to go, no one to talk to
You never get what you wish for
Because life is not a bed of roses

I Can't Just Cry Away The Pain

I Cant Ignore It,
I Cant Just Cry Away The Pain,
Because ..

WithOuT You Tears Keep Falling And NoThIng Is The Same.

That Time I dont Think Anything,But just a Sign That What If You Could Read Me ?

I Can't Sleep Tonight

I Cant Sleep Tonight.I Was Too Busy Thinking About You.
I am So Terrified That If I told You My True Feelings, I Would Scare You Away.
So,
.. I Hold My Feelings In and I Write Them Down And I Hope That One day You Will Feel The Same Way Too ..

I Tell everyone "i'm Alright"

i sit at my best crying at night
i tell everyone "i'm alright," but i lie.
no one ever catches me when i fall,
no one understands or ever calls.

i sit in the darkness ,
waiting for someone to save me.
but none can seem to find me.

all i want is someone that'll listen,
who'll hold me till morning rises.
that someone is there, but just wont listen.

i hail out for them...
my tears drowning me,
so they can't hear.
i reach my hand out
but as i grab hold of their's
i realize it wasn't even there.

i have no will to live, yet no will to die.
sometimes people ask "are you alright?"
i answer them "i'm fine," but it's just another lie.
to the rest of the world i'm happy and content
but inside i'm truly twisted and bent.

I Have Suffered The Punishment

I Was Never Unfaithful Yet I Could Not Be Faithful To You...
I Have Suffered The Punishment For The Crime I Didn't Even Committed

When I Saw My Grave

I wish I was dreaming,
When I heard the word "No."
I wish I was dreaming,
The day I let you go.
I wish I was dreaming,
That time I did you wrong.
I wish I was dreaming,
The moment I knew I didn't belong.
I wish I was dreaming,
When I continued knowing what I knew,
I wish I was dreaming,
The day I professed my love to you.
Because you never smiled back,
Nor did you even wave.
I just wish I was dreaming,
When I saw my grave..
I Dont Have EveryThing
As A Matter Of Fact I Dont Have Anything ExCept a Dream Of A Better Day

|t's Your fault that i Want To Die

I was all i could be,
I gave everything to you,
Wat more did you want,
Wat more could i do?

Just wanna let you know,
I'll never be the same,
I may never say another word,
And you are the one to blame,

Cuts and bruises just don't compare,
To the hurt inside my heart,
My cuts come open and bleed,
And my heart is tearing apart,

Don't care if you beg for me back,
Don't care if you cry,
You've hurt me so much already,
It's your fault that i want to die ..

What I Was & See Wot u Made Me

Maybe its just me, couldn't you believe that everything I said and did wasn't just decieving and the tear in your eye and your calm hard face makes me wish that I was never brought into this place ... It's been eight months/ years since we broke up.. yet every time i see you i melt. it's so hard to move on because you'll always have this control over me... And what you made me... I was never like this ...

I am sad and don't know Why?

Hamne aansuon se pucha kyon mera majak banate ho,sabke samne hi chale aate ho,aansu bole mehfil me bhi aapko tanha pate hai,isliye sath nibhane chale aate hai.

I Promised You Nothing BUt

You Pr0miSed to Take Care Of Me But You Hurt Me

You Pr0mised Me To Bring Me Joy But..You Brought Me Tears ..

U Pr0mIsEd Me Ur LuV But..U Gave Me PAIN....

I Pr0mIsEd U Nothing But...
I Gave YoU EVERYTHING!

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Alone with nothing to say...
Alone with no one to stay...
Alone when this world seemed so gray...
Alone I was silent to her dismay...
Alone I lost touch and drifted away...
Alone I could not stop her from going, she was already halfway...
Alone each moment I used to pray...
Alone I fought all the way...
Alone I walked that path and I could not stray...

Can't u See You're Hurting Me

Can't You See You're Hurting me
Or is it the Way its Supposed be?
I didn't Realize You Were just Playing a game
I need to Stop Dreaming Of What Could Have Been
But I don't see it as just a dream
You can't see the pain I'm going through

I lay in bed and cry at night
Just wanting everything to turn out right
Even though it could never
Cause You Never Cared For Me.